My Body

Alright, as promised, i am dedicating this blog to the most personal issues a girl could ever have, issues of body image.

As most of you know, i have been losing some weight (17 lbs thus far) from eating healthy and low carb and low sugar. (Although i have been drinking lots o low carb beer!) Doing this and seeing results keeps me motivated to not stuff my face with anything and everything that is bread or chocolate related, although come Easter (May 1st) everything is fair game. I plan on eating Cadbury Cream Eggs for breakfast. I'm not joking.

Also, now that school is done, I have promised myself that I will start excersising, cuz thats obviously an important part of staying in shape. Jogging is first on my list to tackle (just cuz it takes me out of the house and its free!), but I would really love to try Yoga/Pilates and to join a gym again (not that i really did the first time!) with Sarah once she comes home.

So far I have gone jogging twice since I only started a few days ago and have also been sick, but one big motivator is a 10k marathon for breast cancer or some other disease (sorry i really dont' remember!) on May 29th that Lucia told me about tonight. She has started training for it and i think its a good thing to work towards. I have never participated in a marathon of any kind, and for some reason it makes me feel like Charlotte or Miranda from SATC cuz they r always in the gym or jogging, training for something!

Go me!

Now, on to my other "issue". Boobs. To have them, or not to have them. Thats the question. Well, since I haven't been to Hooters again lately, my great urge for having massive, bouncy boobs isn't that strong anymore. I also try to look at beautiful women who r noticably small chested like Kelly Clarkson, Gwen Stefani, Charleze Theron and Jennifer Lopez, and notice that they all have other outstanding body parts.

But again, my only issue is that I feel like im missing out. I want something to be there when I wear a bra! I want to actually be able to push something up! I want to order something from Victorias Secret. I don't want big ones, trust me, but I want something! I have done some research, and the majority of breast augmentations r done behind the breast muscle, not doing any harm to milk ducts or nerves. Also, many women have it done before pregnancy, then at some point after get pregnant, and it doesn't really make a difference to the shape of them.

Im still giving it some thought. It won't happen anytime soon. I will have to be on my own and pretty financially stable.

Thanx for listening.

xtina