Well, well, well.... im sure thats what u're all saying right now, look who's finally back in the blogging world. The girl that started it all is back to stay. (lets hope!)
As most of you know, my world has been a crazy whirlwind of change. Change. Thats the key word here. I knew it was coming, but i didnt realize that it would be so fast and mind boggling. Everything changed. My residence, what i do on a daily basis, my boyfriend, and hopefully soon my job. But lets focus on the here and now.
Right now i'm typing away on my computer, in my new bedroom of my new apartment, with illegal internet access and its great. I luv it. Living with sarah is awesome (for the most part!) although we don't see much of eachother due to our opposite scheduals. But we always have stuff in the fridge (thanx to our parents!) and our place is cozy. I luv the fact that all my stuff is mine....i picked it out....not my mom when i was 9. Its so fabulous.
Not being in school is also cool. I have more money on a regular basis. I have time for my guilty pleasures without actually feeling guilty. I don't stress about homework! But work sux. No, actually it doesnt, but serving/bartending sux. I've just been doing it for so long that im sick of it. Of running around like a chicken with my head cut off, of having to think about so many things at one time that i actually need to take short mental breaks of about 10 seconds every half hour or so, and of just feeling like a servant as opposed to a server. Basically, i wanna sit behind a desk, talk calmly to my co-workers in a pleasant environment, be able to take 15 minute breaks, and to just be able to go to the bathroom when i want!! Lets just say i'm on the hunt right now.
Jamie. What a warming name when i hear it. (Mark, u may feel the same way! ;) ) He makes me feel stable in this crazy world and i don't know what i would do without him. He is my protector. Sometimes i look at him and i want to cry cuz im so in love with him. I know it hasn't been long, but its different than anything i've ever experienced. Its amazing. He's amazing.
I guess the name of this blog basically means that all the changes i was going through made me feel lost, like i wasnt' sure what i could hold on to. But that Jamie and i found eachother through it all at the end and thats what counts.
Thanx for listening.
xtina.
